Working, Crying, A Visit From Cara

Haven't been here as much... 12 hour days use up a lot of my energy... Its good though, I'm very lucky to have a job where I feel respected and competent... I teased my boss last week... I told him that where as many people think if they won the lottery the first thing they'd do is quit their job... I told him that for me it would depend... if I was in a good mood with him I'd stay... but if I was mad at him... I was gone gone gone... Actually I really think I'd stay... but I might work a few less hours... *Smile* I had some rough moments the last couple of days... crying a lot... but then Cara and I have been talking a lot this evening... some folks would think its all in my head... I don't believe that so I guess I'll just choose not to worry about what some folks would think... Well its another long day tomorrow and then Friday I'm going to Houma to visit my mother and Cara's graves... That's the gift I'm giving them and myself... I know they're not there but that's where their earthly resting place is so I'm going to visit. I'm also going to see my grandchildren and other family members so it will be good. Cara told me this evening to keep loving and helping take care of her kids... as if she needed to... It really felt like she was telling me that, not that she doubts that I will but that she wants me to know its important to her... Yall do everything you can to remember your loved ones and keep them alive in your hearts forever... as if I needed to tell you... *Smile* The best of the season to all... Hugs