Work

Well I went to work tonight expecting everyone to be mad at me but they are not, seems that they are tired of the things going on at work as well, just no one was willing to stand up and say something, till I came along.

(When 'He' came charging out of the building yelling at everyone, drunk, it set off a trigger in me big time! I went into flight or fight and I was ready to fight!)

I've reached a point in my life where I don't care anymore, not in a bad way but in such a way as to do what is best for me. If you like me fine, if you don't fine. I'm no longer out to make EVERYONE my friend.

I've been a prisoner my entire life. I'm free now and I intend to be happy with what years I have left to me. I'm a good person, I'm kind and generous to others. But you better not step on my toes. I'm not sensitive, and I know everyone has a bad day, but I'm talking about people who set out to try to do me wrong....... it's just not happening anymore! Every again.!

So if I'm liked at work and make friends that's fabulous and if not, well that's ok too because I'm there to make a paycheck first and foremost.

I don't think the guy that set off a trigger in me is a bad person, but he does need to stop drinking at work becuase when you drink these kind of things can happen. He has no idea that he triggered a traumatic response in me. He is actually a nice guy, but if you can't handle drinking, don't drink.....especially at work!

It feels good to stand up for myself, something I have NEVEr done before, or at least very little. I'm determined to be happy, live happy, love, and enjoy life as much as I can.....becaue I deserve it as much as the next person.