Wore out excited but scared shitless over surgery

I have been just so wore out as of late. So I haven't been doing much just trying to soldier on as best as I can. But I feel bad for not being on DS as much to offer support to those who have offered me support or would have had I been on.

Surgery is this Wednesday and although I can't wait, I am scared to death. Not of worries about going under but the not knowing how much pain I will be dealing with afterwards has got my nerves on a razors edge. It will be akin ,I would guess, to having a burned raw area, as they will be leaving it open to heal from the inside out doing the whole wet/dry bandaging thing. Honestly I am scared shitless and that is saying a LOT for me. I'm just trying to keep optimistic about the whole thing.

Other bad shit has gone down as well and now I will be having to find a civil attorney to go after my daughters old middle school for failure to protect her. I just hope I can find one willing to take on the school. Will post more on that later.

Much love to all my friends (and those who have offered support and well wishes here on DS). I feel bad about not being on as often as I feel I should be.