Wondering... (a mood swinging day)
The pharmacy said that I picked up Geo's pills last month, but they are not here in the house. I have no idea what happened to them. Luckily, he doesn't need to take them everyday, and I should have enough to last him until next week when he sees his doctor. I just hate Target Pharmacy right now... they keep trying to auto-refill things he doesn't want to get at Target. I have to go to 2 pharmacies because of stupid Target and I don't have a car so it's a lot of running around on the bus. Oh well.
Today was a mood swing day. I woke up at 6:20am, fully awake and possibly a bit hypo. I made myself some breakfast and tried to sleep, but couldn't. Finally, around 9am, I took 1mg of Klonopin just so I could relax and maybe sleep. I guess that sent me into a depressive phase, because then I slept until noon and had trouble waking up. Geo told me to just go lie back down, so I did and slept until 3pm! How crazy is that? I woke up and I wasn't hungry, I was showing signs of depression. Finally at 4:30 I made myself go for a walk to see about getting Geo's pills. Although I didn't get the pills, I did feel a bit better and started to recover from the depression. Add into that last night I was angry and frustrated after I wrote my journal, and I've done a full 360 on emotions in less than 24 hours. I wish I knew what was causing it and how to stop it.
Maybe I need more Depakote. I hate that pill (or just the idea of how much weight people gain on it). I guess I shouldn't complain too much, I haven't gained weight on it yet. I do have to change how I eat so I don't get heartburn, but I don't have the horrendous appetite that people report while being on it. I've actually lost a pound and a half this week somehow. Although I should give it more time.. this is my first mood swing since I've been on the Depakote, and it wasn't a bad one so far so maybe I should give it more of a chance.
In other news, Geo's parents sold their store, so maybe we can get a car now. His parents said that once they sold the store that they would help get us a car. We have to pay them back, of course, but it would be nice to have a car again. Let the excuses for Geo not wanting to drive me places begin! Although I don't know how much I would mind it... I don't have anything to do anymore (like work) so it's not like I'm on a strict timetable. I just have therapy and doctor's visits. It would just be nice to not have to take the bus to the store anymore. Geo's dad is going to take care of selecting the car, and making sure it works and everything (he's a mechanic) so I don't have to do anything, just wait and help pay them back.
I need to wake up early for therapy tomorrow, but I don't feel like going to bed yet. I just want to sit here and type all night. I think that means my mood is up again (and not up in a good way... not high up at all, just up a bit) and that I should try and fall asleep soon to prevent more mood swings. Maybe I do need a Depakote increase... we will see!
Today was a mood swing day. I woke up at 6:20am, fully awake and possibly a bit hypo. I made myself some breakfast and tried to sleep, but couldn't. Finally, around 9am, I took 1mg of Klonopin just so I could relax and maybe sleep. I guess that sent me into a depressive phase, because then I slept until noon and had trouble waking up. Geo told me to just go lie back down, so I did and slept until 3pm! How crazy is that? I woke up and I wasn't hungry, I was showing signs of depression. Finally at 4:30 I made myself go for a walk to see about getting Geo's pills. Although I didn't get the pills, I did feel a bit better and started to recover from the depression. Add into that last night I was angry and frustrated after I wrote my journal, and I've done a full 360 on emotions in less than 24 hours. I wish I knew what was causing it and how to stop it.
Maybe I need more Depakote. I hate that pill (or just the idea of how much weight people gain on it). I guess I shouldn't complain too much, I haven't gained weight on it yet. I do have to change how I eat so I don't get heartburn, but I don't have the horrendous appetite that people report while being on it. I've actually lost a pound and a half this week somehow. Although I should give it more time.. this is my first mood swing since I've been on the Depakote, and it wasn't a bad one so far so maybe I should give it more of a chance.
In other news, Geo's parents sold their store, so maybe we can get a car now. His parents said that once they sold the store that they would help get us a car. We have to pay them back, of course, but it would be nice to have a car again. Let the excuses for Geo not wanting to drive me places begin! Although I don't know how much I would mind it... I don't have anything to do anymore (like work) so it's not like I'm on a strict timetable. I just have therapy and doctor's visits. It would just be nice to not have to take the bus to the store anymore. Geo's dad is going to take care of selecting the car, and making sure it works and everything (he's a mechanic) so I don't have to do anything, just wait and help pay them back.
I need to wake up early for therapy tomorrow, but I don't feel like going to bed yet. I just want to sit here and type all night. I think that means my mood is up again (and not up in a good way... not high up at all, just up a bit) and that I should try and fall asleep soon to prevent more mood swings. Maybe I do need a Depakote increase... we will see!
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