Wonderful pain filled Sunday

it's been awhile since I have written but things have been low key. Yesterday my daughter came over with her children(7,6 and 1 yr old twins) they came over early and stayed all day. Then Joe invited his friends( I never met them) for dinner. We were sitting out by the pool when my daughter got a text from her friend asking what she was doing. Her fiancé and my son in law are brothers and both are pilots, and she was feeling lonely so I told my daughter Debbie to see if she wanted to join us. She jumped at the chance and came with her son who is autistic with other emotional issues. He is just beginning to warm up to us which makes me feel good. So all in all I had 11 mouths to feed. I am really glad I tend to overbuy, which drives Joe crazy, but it came in handy yesterday. By the time everyone left at 8:00 PM I was ready to just fall down. I am happy to have spent the day with all my friends and family but unfortunately my body didn't feel the same way. It was bittersweet. I want to feel NORMAL again but I know that's not going to happen. This is a self pity moment mixed with happiness if that's possible.