Wonder why...
There has to be a way to break this chain of pain. This chain of sadness!
My mind is the evil master. Evil master of my disaster!
Go deep within and start there. Start where all is clear!
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Somewhere deep inside we can find a place that is still and quiet. No worries or thoughts. No emotions or feelings. There is where the answers lie.
I know I need to be busy so i do not sit with my thoughts. It is hard to be busy when your in so much pain. So I need to find things I can do that do not cause me more pain than I already have! That is the hard part!
In my depressions I feel like life is not worth living. Yet I can write poetry without even trying and I can draw things I cant draw any other time. So the depression is valuable in small doses. NOT in the huge doses I seem to have. I know this depression now is from all the pain. Will I have to wait a whole week in this pain before I get relief? Will I even get relief in a week with the new doctor? What am I supposed to say to get doctors to understand that I am in A LOT of pain and cannot keep living this way?
My mind is the evil master. Evil master of my disaster!
Go deep within and start there. Start where all is clear!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Somewhere deep inside we can find a place that is still and quiet. No worries or thoughts. No emotions or feelings. There is where the answers lie.
I know I need to be busy so i do not sit with my thoughts. It is hard to be busy when your in so much pain. So I need to find things I can do that do not cause me more pain than I already have! That is the hard part!
In my depressions I feel like life is not worth living. Yet I can write poetry without even trying and I can draw things I cant draw any other time. So the depression is valuable in small doses. NOT in the huge doses I seem to have. I know this depression now is from all the pain. Will I have to wait a whole week in this pain before I get relief? Will I even get relief in a week with the new doctor? What am I supposed to say to get doctors to understand that I am in A LOT of pain and cannot keep living this way?
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