woman giving birth inside the front seat of a car//raining outside//reading e mail and facebook

eating greek salad and doing nothing.  its raining outside.  explains the brain fog i've had all morning and aches and pains in the knees etc.  our bodies know the weather before the weather channel.  i actually left the house without my purse and had to drive back and get it.  grrrr.   almost super quiet up north.  LOVE it when its like this.
facebook is acting up again.  no idea why.  weird how so many people get hacked around the same time, or is it facebook itself doing it?  there is a video of a woman giving birth inside the front seat of a car.  omg!  they show the baby and everything.  i know that used to be common a long time ago, but today, it sounds whacko when that happens.  same with the people who have a stomach ache and go to the emergency room and give birth.  the latest one was 47 and was never pregnant before she said.  

the other good one, bda should come with a warning label.  what a way to put it.  gtb says, so sick of fake friends, drama and liars.  there is one that shows a girl looking so innocent and the truth is just the opposite.  that would be valL or so many in the legal field in general.  all this is coming up from saving paul, have never been sure if we actually did.  saved many on that one, that was in spain, little kids, toddlers and teens, but when there are lots of files and lots of people, they all look the same after awhile platinum blonde boy age 3 or 2, they all look the same.  you finish the file and its out of sight and out of mind, you don't remember it at all really.  but you wonder.  i like looking up some of the saves though, wouldn't want to meet them its too much stress, but it think to myself, you wouldn't be alive if i didn't save you.  wonder if lifeguards or emt's think that a lot.  bet they do.  so cool to see them and they are still going.  amazing.  m is on there, and L said to me, he'd want to see you and i'm like, no that's okay.  lol.  
svd just joined last year, he says on e mail to try to collect what his sister stole soon because his daughter s, is probably as bad as his mother and sister were and won't be cooperative without trying to gain from it.  wth?  lol.  the last i knew with them, his mother had held up a bank, united jersey i think.  i said this to bda, and she said, her mother didn't have a gun, she was just trying to get into someone else's bank account and offered to split what was in there with the banker or a teller etc., and her mother would forge anything needed.  oh really?  is that "all".  oh.    wth?
and i'm thinking to svd, right, how about send the money they owe and send the rest of it ups, i don't go to chicago at all.  grrrr.  he also says his first son has that same warning label needed problem, but possibly the youngest one is normal.  who knows.  his wife was normal, those genes should be floating around in there somewhere.  then you view his wife's side and those kids, appear normal, friendly, helpful.  totally different (though photos are always deceiving, but they look cheerful).   his parents were basically part of a gang of thieves who stayed friends since their later teens.  if their kids talk about them, they say, charmed life.  CHARMED?  they steal everywhere they go.  wth?  lol.   amazing how people are born as is and view their life through rose colored glasses unless its pointed out to them and then they still hide it unless they know you pretty well.  his mother had also BLINDED bda's best friend's mother with eye drops with something in them like chlorox or something and stole $25,000 from her back in the early 70's.  i think they still have liens on their estate for it, with interest and damages its a LOT more.   bda would hold the woman down.  wth, his mother also was accused of killing his father's mother and she admitted to it.  she wasn't supposed to visit the mother's house at all, but did anyway.  disgusting.  where is the normal or charmed there?  i don't see it.   people are born as is - i think they are.  a blueprint.  bda knew her mother had been committed back when bda was a baby and she and her brother were going to be raised by their father's mother.  
the head nurse took her mother out of the looney bin - both women were bi-polar and basically terrorized the hospital where they worked for the next 45 years.  that isn't "normal" or "charmed".  sorry.  i think for bda, the bank heist is what made bda finally face reality that all was never well around there.   i can only handle even hearing that kind of thing in small doses - living around that day in and day out must be torture.  the threat of it turning up.  the dread of it.  yuck.  
peel the onion and it reeks.  also a friend's father died.  doubt she'll fly over for it.  the man was whacko when the older kids were young, that went on for YEARS - like 20 years.  by the time the younger ones were big i guess it mellowed over there.  doesn't change the rest of it though.  they also insist "times" had changed.  doubt that.  my first husband's family was never dangerous, and he is the age of their older siblings - but he had relatives who were whacko and he was always living with that and warning about that.  i never took it seriously until way later because you HAD TO.  its like what the hell is this?  and i'm thinking you have been going through all this shit all this time and i didn't even comprehend it.    its always a mixed bag.  

if you hear the younger ones view of the guy that died and then recall what the older ones went through, its like two different people, even though its the same person.  creepy.  i'm not for that though.  our justice system sucks.  it was never handled at all, just swept under the rug for 20 years while it went on and then continued sweeping all the way until now.  its like that more time than not in life in general.  to me its like WHY BOTHER leave it totally, though it can pop up anyway which is really horrifying.  the sense of calm that all people should live with all the time won't happen for families like that or the victims of a person like that until the person finally dies.  
 
the file on bogen is still open.  you know they have him on surveillance camera stabbing a 17 year old girl in the back in front of the court house in broward, she had visited the courthouse on a class trip, there are witnesses and two years later they have the body, which his partner had removed.  they have him punching a teenage baseball player (female) who was a friend of his partner's daughter in the head in his car (his partner used to tap phones and put surveillance cameras in all over the place all the time) and the girl died.  why the hell is this guy still walking around.  and why teenagers and young girls and guys.  always young ones.  i heard later his victims were young children who he felt were competition for his own children of the same age.  he had a baby with his secretary and she was as screwy as he is and used to beat up the infant, like something you would see on facebook videos today.  one night she called him and said if someone didn't shut the baby up she would kill it.  i never heard the whole thing, but rumor has it that he suffocated the baby.  then i heard his partner took the baby but it was too much for the wife who was very old by then and somehow the secretary got the baby back and did the same thing again.  wth?  the secretary is still alive and they had another baby to replace the first one and gave it the same name as the first one to "cover it up".  DISGUSTING people.   he is still walking around.   totally SICK.