Woke up feeling yucky

So I woke up this morning feeling even more lonely and angry about it than when I went to bed last night.

Right before I went to sleep, nick asked me what was wrong. I told him I was feeling really lonely. He said he was sorry, and then went to the front room and hung out with Jason. Gee thanks. I really see how much you care...

He's getting ready to go job hunt now. That's kinda why I feel so mad. Now that I'm the only one working, i have to cover all the bills by myself. That means I'll have to pick up a lot of extra shifts and try to close as much as possible. At least buisness has picked up because of the holidays. I'm really scared I won't be able to make enough, and mad that Im in this position again. I just feel like I'm always caring for everyone but nobody cares for me. It's like everyone just assumes that I know they care so they don't have to show it. It would be nice if I got to hear or see how much they care without them being intoxicated just once.

I just feel like I'm so easily forgettable. I mean, some of my "friends" have even made plans in front of me, and don't even bother to ask if I want to be involved.

I'm the invisible woman.