Withdrawals

My hands shake.  I can't stop it.  It's starting to scare me.  I want to get better.  I want to be a better person.  My husband and my daughter deserve better than what I give them.  I want to write more entries...be more active on DS.  I love my family so much, but I don't like myself.  I want to like myself again.  I want friends and hobbies and motivation.  I want a clean house.  I know that I'm the only one who can do these things for myself.  I'm praying I can stay sober today, but it's only 10:15 and I already want to crack a beer open.  I'm not going to.  I'm going to fight the urge and be a better mom and wife today.  I can do this.  I can do anything.