Witch obsessed with Christians

Hello everyone my name is Nixie Shadowfire and I am a witch.  I am so sorry for being an incredibly complicated person but I wanted to find a site where I can express my feelings to people I hope to call family.  It really isn't hard to be part of my family though, all you have to do is allow me to love you unconditionally, stand by your side, and know that I will never say anything bad behind your back.  I just wonder, what kind of person are you?  Have you ever been the type of person that is always looking inside the "figurative' party but never invited in?  I was never really mainstream and I suppose being a witch in a main stream society sets me further apart from them, but that's fine!

Don't get me wrong, being a witch is one of the most coolest things that could have ever happen to me and it made me a strong person and I couldn't be happier with the choices I made in life!  It's just that it is sometimes difficult to be so alone and far removed from the society I observe.  I accepted the fact that I will never fit in anywhere, but that doesn't damper my love for the people I am blessed to meet and help in anyway I can.

I wanted to start this journal because I feel like I need to explore my obsession with Christianity and find out how I can come to terms with those groups of people.  By the way, did I tell you my life is complicated?  I really don't know?  When it comes to Christians it's bad enough to be a witch that want's contact with them but for me I have a confession to make.  In addition to being a witch I'm a Christian as well so can you understand the confusion and sometimes anger that people from the Christian and Wicca side has for me, but that is my life lol!

Actually I have 3 strikes against me I suppose lol?  I practice folk magic from my Shamanistic Background from my Native American side, High Ceremonial magic from my Celtic Irish side, and Christianity as well.  So I have a good blend of magic, spells and prayers from 3 major religious doctrines that has helped me to be the spiritual person I was destined to be.  I am one of the most open minded person you will ever meet and if you need an unbiased opinion about any religion or concern you have feel free to contact me.

Believe it or not am an author of 2 books "Book Of Life, Book Of Shadows" published 2006 which is a story about the end times where a young christian man befriends 3 witches to help save humanity and "A Year And A Day In The Craft" published in 2008 is a daily memoir of my life as a witch ballanced with the normal life I was trying to live during that faithful year!  I also have over 10,000 pages of articles emails, responses I have given to people and groups I had contact in my attempt to help them out in any way I could.  I am also an ordained High priestess Witch in January of 2012 from an acclaimed Atheist group from Canada who's sole purpose is to ordained people to give Atheist the same types of services ordained clergy gives to their congregation.  By the way, did I tell you that my life is um complicated? ;)

Well I need to leave for now but before I go I wanted to share one of my latest emails I gave to someone that was worried about being "possessed".  This is my life, and all the services I provide to my Earth family is free, so feel comforted, if you are from Mother Earth, you are part of my family now!  Blessings sisters and brothers see you soon, so mote it be!

     Hi R***** V****** so sorry your friend is going through this difficult time! If I may offer some suggestions and warning signs to look out for hopefully it can help your friend out:

Has your friend felt like she is losing control of her life? Does she sometimes look in the mirror and not recognize who she is Does she have uncontrollable anger to the point she might think about hurting herself or others? Does it feel like she can almost see where the attacking entity came from, glimpses of what they have seen before they possessed her?
An attacking entity will try to destroy your self esteem, make you feel worthless, and hope you will give up so it can fully control you.
Please let her know she has to be strong and to never give up! It's important to surround yourself with loved ones and don't withdraw yourself from them. Also refrain from any alcoholic beverages and consult with your doctor for any side effects if you are taking any medications.

Finally I want her to know, that I truly believe there are stringent spiritual laws in place. We are the sole owners of our mind, body and spirit. There is no entity that has a right to possess us unless we give it permission, that is why we have to be strong so that we can assert our right to have complete control of our life!!!

I'll send prayers and energy to your friend and let her know she has family and friends that will stand beside her!