wish you the best
i really beleve we are all save able? is that a word, lol
in my darkest hours, i thought it would never change, i was doomed, maybe i'd have a relief here and there but it was a long shot, i dont know what the future holds, i get the one day at a time, i think about it like an ex, we're done, i have so many quitting days behind me
i know you all know how many times you said no, but went anyway, i think about how lonely it was and how i drifted in and out of reality, sad sad little people around me digging in their pockets/purses , that drive home from hell, that waking up in despair
ive had many mornings of pure joy, im happy i made it
you can too
in my darkest hours, i thought it would never change, i was doomed, maybe i'd have a relief here and there but it was a long shot, i dont know what the future holds, i get the one day at a time, i think about it like an ex, we're done, i have so many quitting days behind me
i know you all know how many times you said no, but went anyway, i think about how lonely it was and how i drifted in and out of reality, sad sad little people around me digging in their pockets/purses , that drive home from hell, that waking up in despair
ive had many mornings of pure joy, im happy i made it
you can too
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day 39, almost close my goal, well my goal to give this shit up forever, its a peaceful settling inside that you except defeat. thats what i think is different this time, i got punched over and over and my usual get up and give them hell attitude kept me going make to make things right, with money/ego/control. im ok to let it down, and stop the bleeding now, i will never recoup my losses, and i will never be able to enjoy gambling ever again.