Wish there was a 100% cure

I was doing so good... I don't really know why or what happened to cause this set back. I am devastated and just want to hide from everyone and everything... I am a very positive person and have dealt with this my whole life but I am getting so tired of the bald lashes and the pain from pulling... I honestly do not know what to do anymore. I have been to therapists and it did not help me at all. unless a Therapists has walked in our shoes or suffers from this condition  I don't feel like they could possibly know the pain or devastation  we feel living with Trichotillomania. wish I could wake up from this nightmare!