Will I ever be Happy get my sanity back.

I'm mad at myself that I made a mistake years ago Now It's my reality.

I want to leave so bad I can't. I'm going crazy because 2016 was my chance 
START BEING HAPPY NOT DEALING WITH BS
 
 The people in my life is making me feel more unhappy with my life they don't want to see me succeed in life 

I'm trying to change take control of situation SELF IMPROVE SELF GROWTH SELF LOVE 
 
Jan 2016 I felt so peaceful after so many years disconnected with my emotions . 

These past months have been a flashback that I don't want to face A repeat cycle. 

The Things that had to happen in this year I never saw it coming since I made sure of preventing it I'm starting to feel like trouble follow me or people out get me  love  to see me down 

Maybe I'm cause of my own happiness #engaging#feedIntonegative  
 
I just want feel good about myself and waking up feeling good caring about my appearance more. 
 
My family is getting my way I'm tired letting them control how I feel and think 
 
what I did in the past doesn't define me won't effect me I will not let it have an impact on how I
live my life. 
 
12years of sadness  9years of depression. 
 
I admire happiness desire within itself ,I deserve to have a fulfillment meaningful life.  

PEACE & HAPPY that all I want 

now I'm just sad all over again while they don't care It's taking a toll on me I'm tired can't stick around any longer.