Will 2009 ever end?

This year can’t get over fast enough.  It all started in March when my father was hospitalized. Two months later he died, still in the hospital.  During that time, my brother was diagnosed with brain cancer and he died on July 30th.  The Saturday before Thanksgiving, my dear aunt died in the hospital, with the reason so far as unknown.  During this time frame, I also lost two cousins.  It’s been unbearable, all the death that occurred for my family within a six month time frame.    All of these people live out of state, so I spent much of my year living in motels and hanging out in hospitals.  Needless to say, I missed a lot of work this year and wore myself down.  Then in the middle of all my grief, my body decides to crash and burn. I could not ignore my symptoms, because I thought I was going to die.  I think my body went in to a state of shock.  I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Sjogrens Disease and Lupus.  There is also some sort of Thyroid problem, which is requiring more tests.  I’m still trying to accept all of this, but for me, it is just additional grief for the loss of my health.  I feel like I’m at the edge of my rope.  I’ve become jumpy and nervous about things that never bothered me before.  This year has changed me completely and it is going to be a long time, if ever when I will be able to recover from all that has happened in 2009.  I know we all have problems and situations in life, but I do believe my year has got to be near the top of some list as worst ever years.  Thanks for reading.