Wide awake....
I am wide awake. Nothing new. I no longer have enough meds to be taking them all the time. So, if I dont have sleeping meds - I dont sleep at all or not much anyway. And the reduction of the other meds has finally taken a toll on my mind. Either I am crying, or so down I dont want to move, or my heart is racing and I feel I will explode. Woke yet again with a severe throbbing headache. Told the doc AGAIN about how bad they are and still nothing to help me. If I had a gun I would blow my head off to make it stop hurting. What does it take to get help and some sort of relief from the pain? i know many people who lie and get pain pills all the damn time and I am in actual needof pain relief and I am ignored. Just like how my entire life has always been. Who gives a shit! The whole hell of not enough food and how I cant get enough help pisses me off. I know a few people that lie so they can get lots of food stamps. here I am not able to eat half the month and those people have plenty of food and money. Cause they lie. This whole world has become about lies and if you bitch and complain you get something. While people like me do the honest thing and get screwed for it. There is no justice - for its all about who you know in this messed up life! My son needs new shoes. He is diabetic and insulin dependant. Shoes are major important fo rhim not to end up loosing a limb. I cant even buy the glucose tablets for him when his blood gets low and are stuck with him eating sugar to stop himself from going into a diabetic coma. WTF!!!!! And then breaking down to my all time low and asking the ones I know for help, just to have most of them turn their backs completely on me. Had 3 give me at least word of love and one take me and get me some food for a few days. Here I am, with the knowledge that many of the people I have helped, loved and cared for - shut the door on me. That is a crappy feeling & shocking!!!! In the last year I have had all the yard sales I can to get by on. I am out of things I can sell. I have sunk lower than low in my book. I see no light in my path. No reason to continue to push through each and every day with hope that is being ripped apart. I am lost in the deepest darkest place. I have begged, borrowed and pleaded. I am out of ideas. I am out of options.
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Have you tried asking your son\'s school nurse for help?
I know this sounds manipulative but I would think that if you made it known to your son\'s teachers, school nurse, principals, etc that your son is in need and that you have asked them and they have denied you that they become liable if something should happen to him. Ask them to deny you IN WRITING. I betcha when you ask them to put their ass on the line they start helping!
You are in my thoughts and prayers sweetie. Hang in there. The money will come.
Hey Joanne,
My son is home schooled because he is so sick most of the time from his diabetes and the fact he cant eat right on what we get. When his blood is too high he gets mean and when its too low he cant talk or move. When he was in school he atleast had a balanced lunch. Doesnt help us at home though!
Yes my husband is still working. He is a cook at Pizza hut. He has tried to find a better job for the last year and no one will hire him. The economy is the pits. He got a felony when he was 17 years old so they hold that against him. His income pays all the utility bills and mine pays the mortgage. He does odd jobs when ever possible to put gas in the vehicle.
Sweetheart, I am nowhere near your position, but I understand on a much smaller scale. Get those damned food stamps; that\'s what they are there for. Also, contact medicaid for your son; you may not be able to get on it, but I believe he can get on it almost immediately.
As for your medication, contact the companies directly. I am going to go look for those organizations that help you get your meds when you don\'t have insurance and can\'t pay for your meds.
Message me and tell me what meds you are on.
As for shoes, does he need a specific kind of shoe? Message me and tell me.
Here are some places to go immediately for help getting your meds. Your meds are important so you can keep taking care of your son. As for food, I will look into that as soon as I can.
https://www.pparx.org/Intro.php (this is the one that Montel Williams supports on TV)
http://www.freemedicine.com/
Contact NAMI in your local area.
Please please do this. More to come on food.
Okay, food:
Augusta GA food bank:
http://www.goldenharvest.org/
Curtis Baptist Church Food Pantry
http://curtisbc.org/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=16&Itemid=28
Thank you