Wicked Evil Lupus

Damn, I gotta learn to relax!I left work Friday at 10:30 am.  Doesn't help the finances but I can only function to a certain level on a certain amount of pain killers. I took a hot shower, shaved, exfoliated, etc. Was waiting for that shoe to drop. Waiting to see "What next".  Thought the Lupus was getting ready to get me but good.  Woke up crying on Saturday.  I didn't realize that Lupus attacks the freakin muscles!  Could not move my head, AT ALL.  My Lupus has always beem the joints, on a regular basis. The occassional blood clot or menengitis.  I was soooooooooo scared it was coming to get me.  Hubby tried to get me to go to ER, which I refuse to unless I am bleeding or unable to breathe.  He wanted me to go to Urgent Care.  I reminded him of my horrible mis-diagnosis.My husband reminded me of some muscle relaxants I had from a previous fall.  I ate those and pain killers, heat pads and Bengay.  Sunday I woke up and could actually move my head from side to side!  Excellent!  Another bonus - I lost 2 pounds!  The worse part of it all is the fear of what's coming.  Like they say, the waitings the worse - stupid Lupus!