why yes please make me hurt this way ...

i love the way that he goes out ...acts like its just a friend thing when i know the truth.. its not just a friend thing .... i get to sit at home and think all about this stupid shit ... about what he is going to be doing ... how he could possibably hurt me and i know he will we may not be together but i would never hurt him regardless because we still live together .. why would you want to hurt me? im a cute girl ... iam fun i promise ..... i wish everthing was back to the way it was before when i made you happy ... when i was the girl that made your tummy get butterflies ... when iwas the girl that put that smil on your face ... but i guesss the past is the past andi just need to accept the truth .. that i was never the one who made you smile i was jsut some stupid girl ... blahhhhh ... i love the way you remind me that we arent together ... tanks sooo much thank you really i love he way this feels ..i know we arent together you dont have to rub it in ....thank you soo much really thanks for not noticing my hair either ... thank you ... i dont know what to do anymore ... dont .... im so domb ...why how can he do this to meeeeeeeee.......why its not fair .. go out to be with another girl and not even think of me and i wont see him til tomrrow after work cuz he wont come home ... thank you for reading just the first sentence of my journal and telling me "yea i am going out andit doesnt matter remeber we arent together" ..an jiss me oon the forehead ...thanks soooo muchhhh