Why Today?

I ask myself that same question almost everyday....some days are much harder than others...well...today is gonna be a beast...it has been a beast since i opened my eyes...the overwhelming sadness that makes my stomach feel sick...my mind feel blank...the tears come so fast and hard...I HATE IT!!!
I find myself having a personal meltdown and I have to work...sitting here staring at the walls in my office praying that no one will walk in......"how are you today"...oh jeez...do they really want to know???
I will not give in again...I just want today to hurry up and end so I can go home!
Looking for a little relief from this wave in the morning....love you all so much...thanks for listening once again to the ramblings of a sad old woman.
Walking beside you always...
Jacqueline PLH