Why the Tears Again???

I thought I was doing well from an emotional perspective, but after speaking with mom today......I broke down and cried.  The tears were for mom and myself.  She sounded ok over the phone, but her voice seemed pretty groggy, and sad.  My family and I still have no idea when she'll be released from the hospital.  Her condition is still being evaluated, and I've become an emotional wreck.  I'm thankful for not crying during our conversation because that would have upset her.  With all that's happened regarding her health, mom's still concerned about my well-being.  She's amazing. The tears allowed me to vent my feelings, which is important, but I felt weak after doing so.  Because of the new year, I hope to make some improvements....but I feel like a lost cause, or loser.  Some days have been really good, but other times, it's more of a challenge finding something to smile about.  It seems that when one bad thing happens, several more bad things occur at the same time.  I hate depression!!!   Sabrina