why?! so unfair!

Went to the Dr..and baby has no heartbeat...dr. Gave me my options..miscarry naturally or with meds.... I broke down... What went wrong ?? Why? So I went home tryin to be positive and convinced that they could have missed it .. Then I went to the bathroom to pee and then my lil baby in the sac dropped in the toilet....baby left me at 7w5days  I just don't understand I'm sooo heartbroken... I just don't know. What to do or say.  I feel so empty.. How could o love someone soooo much and just lose it... I feel soo numb...... I can't stop crying i missed "Dot" so much...(that's the nickname we gave the baby during the first ultrasound ).... I want my baby soo bad but there's sno way to get Dot back.. Its over , the babys gone...i feel soo sick and i want to wake up from this nightmare ... last week i started writing a letter to the baby every few days and i can't even look at those letters......just wanted to let yal know...just pray for me please... 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

im so sorry. I cant even imagine what you are feeling right now. YOu will be in my prayers
maxwell17
maxwell17

I am so so very sorry. I am heartbroken for you. You are in my prayers.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m so sorry. I\'ve been there because I too had a miscarriage before and it doesn\'t get easy. Cry, let it out and after that try again. You\'ll be a mom one day. I\'ll pray for you and your family.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so sorry this happwned. U r def in y prayers
mrsbrown321
mrsbrown321

Thanks everyone...
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so, so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to give all your love to this tiny little person whom you have never met and then to have your hopes and dreams shattered. I have miscarried three times (10 1/2 weeks, 10 weeks, and 6 1/2 weeks). It is very important that you let yourself feel however you are feeling. If you walk through the worst of the grief right up front, the process will become easier down the road. You will feel every emotion in the book. But there is one very important thing. ALL your tiny little baby felt from you was love. You loved that little one from the moment you got that positive pregnancy test. You will have no regrets because of the unconditional and unceasing love you gave to your child. Losing three little ones was the hardest experience I have ever been through. But I have no regrets. I loved them from day one. They were and are mine. And little Dot is yours. I hope my three little angels welcomed your little Dot into Heaven with open arms and lots of love. Hugs to you.
mrsbrown321
mrsbrown321

Sorry for loss CatLover and thank you lots.. This really helps me.. Thanks
deleted_user
deleted_user

Oh honey. I am soooo sorry for your loss. I remember the pain I felt when I lost August. My heart goes out to you and your husband. You will be in my prayers. Hugs hun.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m so sorry to hear your news. Stay strong...focus on the silver lining \"you know you can get pregnant\" now that you know that you can focus on what you have to do to keep baby once its there! Like monitoring your progesterone levels from the very very instant you find out you\'re pregnant. You\'re in my thoughts.
mrsbrown321
mrsbrown321

Thanks WishingHopingPraying.. yes.. they put me on progesterone a week before I am to take a pregnancy test....just in case.. They said it just happen...
MoniKat
MoniKat

Oh my sweetie! I am just now seeing this! I am heartbroken for you!!! This was everything you ever wanted and dreamed of.....and I hate to hear and see it being ripped away from you =( I know how hard it is to lose a baby that you have dreamed about and had. I don\'t wish that feeling on anyone!

Have you thought about trying another IUI soon? It might be soon for you but I know you are strong and not giving up. All my love and prayers to you right now xoxo
mrsbrown321
mrsbrown321

Thanks Monica, Im sure I will try again.. but not sure when... im just so upset that I dont even know what my next move is.. I am just sitting here in a daze, in disbelief... dont know what to do...
deleted_user
deleted_user

Prayers to you, I miscarried about 7 weeks naturally myself and it takes time. You don\'t ever forget or do the what if mental game but I promise you it gets calmer, quieter, and you do try again. Hugs.
mrsbrown321
mrsbrown321

Thanks a lot.. I cant wait til it gets better.. cause thats the only thing that can happen.. cause I cant get the baby back.. I it needs toget better.. :( ..