Why Pat?
Hey Sweetheart,
I just can't take this,I dreamed about you,you were holding me,we were sitting in some kind of wingback chair like the kind at my mother's and we were hugging and kissing.Everything was great,Then my phone rang and it was Pastor sam telling me that me and the kid's can be presented to the church Sunday and schedule the baptism for the next week.I am fine with that because we do love the church and want to get involved in it.Seem's the only time I am even half way happy is when I am busy and have my mind on other things,right now it's all about Christmas,you know how much I love it and you know how I love to decorate for the holidays and since we live in the smokies where its Christmas 4 months of the year then I may just leave Christmas out all year.I just wish I had all my stuff from MS to decorate with,you know I have enough for 3 houses,you always called me a Christmas hoarder(lol) It's really the only thing that help's make me happy,cause nothing I can do will ever bring you back to me and the kid's.I wish there was a way to bring you back,but all I can do is do thing's in your memory,like donate to a charity or something like that.I actually hate the idea of driving to MS for the holiday's.I know it will be ok at my parent's,and at Sandy's but when it come's to going to your parent's it will be hard,they miss you so much and I know they are not going to feel like having Christmas.I'm doing it for our 2 kid's if it wasn't for that I would just sit here.It's going to be hard going to the cemetary.I will be putting flowers there for you. I Love you
I just can't take this,I dreamed about you,you were holding me,we were sitting in some kind of wingback chair like the kind at my mother's and we were hugging and kissing.Everything was great,Then my phone rang and it was Pastor sam telling me that me and the kid's can be presented to the church Sunday and schedule the baptism for the next week.I am fine with that because we do love the church and want to get involved in it.Seem's the only time I am even half way happy is when I am busy and have my mind on other things,right now it's all about Christmas,you know how much I love it and you know how I love to decorate for the holidays and since we live in the smokies where its Christmas 4 months of the year then I may just leave Christmas out all year.I just wish I had all my stuff from MS to decorate with,you know I have enough for 3 houses,you always called me a Christmas hoarder(lol) It's really the only thing that help's make me happy,cause nothing I can do will ever bring you back to me and the kid's.I wish there was a way to bring you back,but all I can do is do thing's in your memory,like donate to a charity or something like that.I actually hate the idea of driving to MS for the holiday's.I know it will be ok at my parent's,and at Sandy's but when it come's to going to your parent's it will be hard,they miss you so much and I know they are not going to feel like having Christmas.I'm doing it for our 2 kid's if it wasn't for that I would just sit here.It's going to be hard going to the cemetary.I will be putting flowers there for you. I Love you
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I am glad to hear you still plan to decorate for Christmas. I do, too. EVERY day is hard - I may be kidding myself but I don\'t think the holidays will be any harder than any other day for me. Take care.
-MJ