Why Is it...
...I continually gravitate toward DARKNESS (in my soul)? Is it because the Dark Side seems stronger? Or that the Good Side requires so much more work and is exhausting? I dunno, but I fall back on darkness as a reservoir of strength and stability. It's comforting, something I can count on. The Good Side is more confusing to me somehow. How to be "good", especially when I'm confronted with people I have to deal with to make a buck, people whom I find agitating and annoying???
The Dark Side, however, does NOT quell loneliness! Therefore, which do I prefer, being lonely or being agitated? I feel as though I must squelch any dark urges I have, which are typically geared toward sex and violence, to peacefully coexist with others. With regards to violence, my mother, for example. I wouldn't get physically violent toward her, but we sure do spar with words!!! Perhaps I simply haven't met the right soul yet lol, one who ENCOURAGES my dark side, as I encourage hers, or simply have not found a way to peacefully coexist with someone...any advice is greatly appreciated...
The Dark Side, however, does NOT quell loneliness! Therefore, which do I prefer, being lonely or being agitated? I feel as though I must squelch any dark urges I have, which are typically geared toward sex and violence, to peacefully coexist with others. With regards to violence, my mother, for example. I wouldn't get physically violent toward her, but we sure do spar with words!!! Perhaps I simply haven't met the right soul yet lol, one who ENCOURAGES my dark side, as I encourage hers, or simply have not found a way to peacefully coexist with someone...any advice is greatly appreciated...
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