Why is the Worse....
Why am I depressed - bipolar - isolating - frustrated - insecure.
Why do I have no self control - motivaton - pride - no energy.
Consquences - dirty house, 50lbs+ over weight, I try not to leave the house, I don't want to garden or work in the yard. I tell all my friends no, till they quit calling....
Asking "Why" to me is the worst, crying when my dog passed - understandable, makes sense, approprite feelings for the action.... having the same feelings for no Reason at ALL - sucks.
I've tried to come back to the board - turn the computer on a few times a day, to try and belong again - I love the support, but I need friends to hold on too.... So, I check and see friends and some in need and I can't think of what to say! Me with no words, experience or hope - can't imagine a post - well, actually I have LOL there is my favorite Gratitude, and Where are you? As you see I haven't - and don't know Why...
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Hey Gina,
Why is often just too damn hard to answer. For us "why" can be like a bottomless pit and staring into it seems to suck out the life by the second...
I try to stay away from "why" personally. There doesn't always have to be an answer or a reason, there just "is". I'm sorry that you lost your dog, I know you love those doggies. Have you thought of fostering a new dog, maybe having that bit of Joy back in your life, another lovable thing to connect with each day, someone in the house to talk to, might help you have a reason to do some of the things I know your missing so much. And yes I know that getting another dog brings the risk of being hurt again, but most things in this life worth doing or having come with risk....and most things are worth the risk. Its just a thought.
We're here for you, I know we aren't there in your real world, but we are here. You always brought Joy to a lot of folks around here, don't discount that. You have a purpose, you are important, don't focus so much on the "why" just do what you can as you can. Take care and feel free to message me if you need to talk.
kat
Thanks for commenting on my journal. Loved the story about your dog. Animals, gotta love them!!! Sorry you are depressed. I have missed seeing you on the board, but I understand the hesitancy in posting. When we are depressed sometimes it's just hard to come up with something to say. Write to me any time. I'm on a couple times a day usually.