why is life so hard

well its been over a month since we split & am feeling more positive but i have bad days & good days its not that i miss him its i miss the dreams of everlasting love, the company, i know i got 2 change the way i am dont rush in2 any relationship, dont let them move in with u, keep ya friends dont make a man first in ya life, dont belive a work a man says lol. what is love ? am going 2 be strong & pray 4 what i want & work 4 what i need.