Why I wanted to join and a thought

I have been looking a long time to try and find a group that I can relate to. More often then not I have seen groups that get so focused on themselves that you get more fighting then you do any help. I can honestly say this is probably one of the best groups I have seen out there. I know that there has been issues of a troll from what I have seen, but those types of jerks will always haunt groups. Why they get their sickĀ  pleasure from this I will never understand. It saddens me that we live in a world where it's easier to look down on people versus try to give them help. The health insurane companies make it so you can get insurance to help with your sight and from what I have heard if need be an fake limbs for people. But why can't we get hearing aids? If they thing we don't need to hear, I say we make them sit through having a mold of your ear taken. Make them try to go through the day of having people get anoyed because you have to ask them to repeat what they have said. Some times I think if they knew what we go through they may see it different. When I was 20 I went to a doctor and complained about my hearing. I have had ringing in my ears for several years now. He said it was because I had a wax build up, which I did but cleaning didn't solve the problem. My doctor had me do a test where they stick a devise in your ear and you supposed to hear a noise. I never did,but he said I have the deepest ear canals of anyone he has seen. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not. My audiologist said I have had hearing problems for many years, but 7 years later the damage was done. I listened to loud music and worked in a job where there was loud noise which caused problems. Yes I am to blame for some of this. I never told my parents because I didn't want them to worry. When I found out I was deaf it was like someone kicked me in the groin, I was depressed severly. I have gotten used to wearing the hearing aids, but know it's never going to be the same. I'm not looking for sympathy just speaking my mind and saying some about myself. But above all else had the insruance help all those years ago I think I would have been doing alot better. When I told my mother she didn't beleive it. Why didn't the school tests show anything. Why?Because you can cheat on those it's easy. if you read this and like it or not, remember this is how I feel and what I have gone through. I think if your a parent and think your kid is going deaf don't wait do what you can now.