Why I'm Here

I was raped. I was on a date with a guy I had been out with before. I liked him because he was respectful and he didn't try to touch me. When he asked me to go back to his apartment with him to watch a movie, I thought that's exactly what we would be doing. Watching a movie and spending more time together. He had other ideas. When I asked him to stop, he didn't. And I couldn't push him off me. I feel so dumb for multiple reasons. I wish I didn't go to his apartment. I don't understand why I didn't fight more. I was a virgin. He took my virginity. I need help, but I don't know where to begin. How do I get the help I need? What if I'm asking for too much?