Why I'm Here...
I guess I should explain why I decided to join this site in the first place. I wanted to be able to talk to people about what was going on and what I'm trying to figure out but the thought of speaking to people about just made me feel scared and depressed so I guess this is my attempt at a second approach...
For the past year or so, and especially the last few months, I have found I have had consious attractions to girls. These have only been close friends and I do not find that I am attracted to girls if I am not already close to them. Unfortunately, this means i get worried about getting too close to people bacause I don't want to make it awkward for myself. I know I am young but I am not naive. I know what I am feeling and I know that I'm not straight.
My main problem is I go o a girls school which means I don't know many boys. I have had some attractions to boys but not really the same as I have with girls. This means that I am unsure as to whether I am Lesbian, Bi, or something else.
I am really confused and I keep getting angry at myself and situations around me because i feel like I'm having to figure everything out for myself.
I have, on rare occasions, seriously considered self harm and suicide however I have not gone through with it.
For the past year or so, and especially the last few months, I have found I have had consious attractions to girls. These have only been close friends and I do not find that I am attracted to girls if I am not already close to them. Unfortunately, this means i get worried about getting too close to people bacause I don't want to make it awkward for myself. I know I am young but I am not naive. I know what I am feeling and I know that I'm not straight.
My main problem is I go o a girls school which means I don't know many boys. I have had some attractions to boys but not really the same as I have with girls. This means that I am unsure as to whether I am Lesbian, Bi, or something else.
I am really confused and I keep getting angry at myself and situations around me because i feel like I'm having to figure everything out for myself.
I have, on rare occasions, seriously considered self harm and suicide however I have not gone through with it.
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Don\'t ever forget your never alone and i one point i felt like i was alone to but don\'t give up on yourself try to find some good friends and talk to them about what your going through and don\'t think of suicide because your here for a reason don\'t give up
Thank you xxx
Right now I`m going through all of these things that you wrote, trying to figure out who I am and understanding what all of these trikes/guesses in my life really mean but I want you to know that you are NOT alone, maybe not everybody can understand you but be sure that I can.