why does life suck???!!!

i haven't written in months b/c so much has been going on.....sooooo my grandma passed away on Friday 13....that sucked....yesterday was a memorial service....then i come home from work today and i get a call from my brother telling me that my other grandparents were in a car accident....they were hit by someone who passed out at the wheel.....so my grandpa is in SICU....fractured ribs, fractured pelvis and a few other places...he has internal bleeding that they hope stops on its own....my grandma's spleen but they think she'll be okay....she's sleeping now and stable....it sucks because they are in different hospitals and that's gonna be really hard on them....life sucks...TRULY SUCKS!!!!! my parents are visiting them along with their other children....i feel like self injuring or screaming until my throat is raw and bleeding...i'm angry and sad and just feel like i'm spiraling out of control....my mom told my brothers to come and spend the night with me tonight...i never told anyone that i wanted to self injure because i know that that's not what they need.....i love my brothers but, i barely have any food in my house and i don't know what time i have to work tomorrow and they haven't even left yet...it's gonna take them about an hour to get here and i wanna sleep, but i can't because i can't leave my door open....LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!