why do i do that to myself??????
I use to love watching a baby story on TLC. Well today while we werent busy at work i sat n my office n was flipping channels. I sow a baby story was on. (thinking i could handle it) i processed to watch it! Well about thrity minutes later i started balling my eyes out n txting hubby. He ordered me to change the channel NOW. So i did. The woman on the show had PCOS n HYPOTHYRODISM like me! So i guess the fact that she was pregnant intriged me! I guessed wrong! It ended up hurting me bc she got pregnant naturally! I feel like ripping my insides out bc i dont want to go through this! I want to be NORMAL! Like I know what normal is any more! So now iam sitting here crying to my self!!!! Lord i feel like iam being punished for sumthing i done wrong! I have said iam sorry a billion n 1 times! I dont understand if this is punishment aint this corpal punishment?????Now iam going to drink a soda (which i refuse to drink) an eat a honey bun (sugarrrrrrr)...
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Depending on my mood sometimes the shows make me feel good and other times its like salt in a wound.....I think to block you\'re tv from all baby related programming for awhile! Hope you\'re feeling better
I haven\'t been able to watch that show since my IF struggle. Know your limits, and don\'t put salt in the wound.
Your DH is right... when you see that show change the channel. You don\'t need the extra pain. I am sorry that you had such a crappy day. I say enjoy your sugar!
But the show that gets me every time is \"I didn\'t know I was Pregnant\". I mean how is that possible??? Those women are wacko! I just can\'t believe that they are so out of touch with their bodies. I wish that would happen to all of us!
Lol thanks ladies. N i keep telling my husband ill be the next crazy ladie on the I didnt know i was pregnant show. Bc after one miscarriage i dont believe it will happen!!!!
Well... If it means you get a little baby! That would be great. Keep trying, our turns have to come.