why did i ever do it!!!!

im not proud for what i did im accualy starting to regret doing it. back in my freshman year of highschool i was nervous i didnt know were my classes were....but i think everuybody goes through that struggle. lol my freshman year i had heath as my a block class. my first day i didnt reconize anybody there i knew so i was nervouse. a couple days went by and ppl started to tlk to me to get me to open up. i meet some really cool ppl that i liked. i met this one gurl,her name was brittanie. she was nice we tlked every day. after my first year i got through i had some good friends. when we came back from summer vaca me and brittanie were still tlkin so i guess we were friends then. everything was good and we got along, we hung out. by the time i got to my junior year of highschool our friendship started to go down hill. she started to vanish away from me she choose to because i told her that i had a crush on her. she didnt feel the same way. i understood it and i didnt mind but i told her i just felt better getting it out and off my chest. after that she started to treat me diffrently like when i saw her at school and she was with her friends she would make it obviouse and tlk bout me and giggle all her jokes behind my back. i got hurt from it. after a while passed i relized i still liked her but she still never changed we still tlk every nce in a while but we fought alot. things have gotten alot worse and we r now at the point to wer she hates me and i dont think we r ever gna tlk again. i hate it cause i wanna have a chance to explain things to her. like that even though i like her i still wanted to be just friends. but its kinda hard to explain the situation to her if all she doing is ignoring me all the time. so if you have any ideas or advice for me leave me a comment pls k thanx a lot :)