Why can't I just be normal!?

Why can't I just be normal!? I hate that I have so many imperfections and nothing good about me. I want to be good at something, I want to be in control of myself and my actions. I want to be pretty, I want to be skinny, I want to be popular, I want to be noticed, I want to be loved. None of these things can ever happen. I'm just not good enough. Why do I have so many problems? I'm always humiliated and an embarrassment to everyone. Why am I me? Just why?