Why can\'t he just leave her

I still can't believe that Spanky is with Rayna.  I had hopes that he would start to see thru her by now.  Saw them arguing in the street on Saturday and I had to giggle to myself.  Unfortunately they must have kissed and made up since they were together at Aunt Vicky's yesterday.  She really couldn't talk since I didn't want him to know that I was on the phone with her.  Aunt Vicky said that she was going to find out what he is doing.  I only hope that she can say something to him that will wake his ass up! Seems like everyone is accepting that the two of them are together and can only be happy for them.  He is 14 years older than her! What is there to accept? It's wrong!!!!  I wonder if he ever misses me and ever realizes what he gave up.  Is this a mid-life crisis for him? Will he ever get over it and want me and what we had back?  I miss him like crazy! I'm dying to put my arms around him and kiss his lips again.  I want to see the smile on his face and the sparkle in his eyes while we are together.  Why can't I have that? What hold does she have on him? Why doesn't he want that again too?  When is he going to call me?  Tomorrow it will be 3 weeks and no contact.  This is literally killing me.  If I knew he definately wasn't coming back to me, i'd lay down and hope to die for sure.  I'm tired of all the games, the mind games, the waiting games, the hurting games.  I can't take much more!