why?...bliss or damned awaits...

why suffer in this life? i could go to the other side....eternal bliss or damned i dont really care one way or the other....it happens to all of us in the end....i will just face it sooner...i dont want to hurt anyone by doing this...but i think i have to....im kinda at peace with my decition...you guys have helped me out of so much...i can never thank u for that, but i have to do this...(idk why it says goal update btw, i didnt update anything...)