Why are some days so much better than other?
Woke up feeling anxious and tired and a headache over my eyes. I really wanted to stay in bed but got dressed and took the dogs for a spin. It pretty much sucked. The dogs (8 lb jack russull and 65 lb pittbul) were unruly and pulling me in different directions. They were just picking up on my negative energy. Instead of calming down I was just getting angry with them and my music was just annoying me. We went further today but mostly walked instead of ran. At the end of it I'm sitting here crying my eyes out. I know what the problem is. I'm doing the fantasy thinking today. Imagining him without all his issues and me without all mine, and just happy together and a happy family. Can't even write anymore, tears are too heavy.
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We are on a rollercoaster, sister, and all we can do is try our best. Accept your feelings, cry your heart out, then try to find something else to dwell on. He is what he is; it is what it is.
Hugs to you.
Lori
Feel what you need to feel and cry when you need to. You will be back at the top of this emotional roller coaster very soon. You will have many ups and downs before the sad times are over.
hugs to you .. those heavy tears do subside, they become hard to get on the outside, but remain in the heart for some time.. it has been said here many times, you have to feel it to get through it.. still working on that myself, not so much about ex anymore but life in general.. Its just one thing after another.. hope tomorrow is better for you
I totally sympathize about the dogs. There are days when I take my German Shepherd to run with me in the beach and it\'s lovely, and other days when it sucks -- he pulls, he wants to keep stopping to pee on every tree, he wants to lunge after other dogs, etc. And just like you , my bad days with the dog seem to attract other negative energy -- the tide is too high to get in a decent run, my iPod runs out of juice, I stumble over a rock or something and pull my knee, not too badly but just enough to make my run not as much fun as it should be etc, etc. I try not to let those days get me down, but I agree with you, they suck. But tomorrow is another day, so I hope you have a good run tomorrow with your dogs. Wish we could all run together !
Hugs and blessings