Why am I here?

   I don't feel well today my medicine(effexor) worked O.K. in the past. Now I feel kind of nausous. I spent 5 days at my moms. She was sobbing loudly for days because of the unexpected death of her sister.(aneurism) I have terrible anxiety dealing with big groups of people. It was very hard to be at the wake and memorial service. I just tried to be supportive for my mother. My brother and sister don't bother with my mother. Her husband was very physically abusive to her. My siblings still hold a grudge against her even though he has been dead for now for over 16 yrs.    I use to be able to function O.K. I have not done well now for about the last 8 yrs. I've worked in a few warehouses which was hard. It was hard physically, but also dealing with people was so frustrating. I suffer from post nasal drip and recurrent sinus infections. The doctors never seem to help. I've taken antibiotics, but it always comes right back, nasal sprays from the doctor, saline rinse everyday. And nothing works. I'm a very sedentary person. Maybe if I force myself to exercise(which I hate) it may help.