who we were

something else needs to be thought about principally who we were. i get the impression that life stops at rape, an its never the same regardless of what form it took. sexual violation isnt something that i enjoyed the barbaric feel and sadism is all i can say it honestly is. its does give a shock effect, it does give a weak feel, it also does give a muscle effect, like theyre not working properly. violence is always associated with it. i never saw anything that was just a sex violation that just sort of went away happily with everything swept under the carpet inc the pain an suffering of the victim(s) it always led to violence. so really who we were is not now the same.  once we were that one, now we had to fight in courts, sometimes bent state depts, religions, or where ever or who ever was involved. i mean i was only thinking of mc donalds on one occasion instea im here talking to you and rape advocates etc. so what i was even just vanished and we probably did end up emotionally tied everywhere.  its a bit like that you see youre family and go "hold on im just talking over to my friend over when she was raped, and some of my other friends there. te converstion goes like that when i just walk in with child rapes and other rapes. i mean if you think of it theyre there and im  here with you and its a different world it really is..........