Who knew ....

Well yesterday I got a Mamm & Bone Density exam same place you had your MRI . made me teary, today I had blood work same place I dropped you off  for yours when we came back from San Diego, I'd drop you off and you'd walk home in the heat .... I cried boy did I  cry. Next week is your birthday forever 49... Feeling so sad this week and "who knew" the little things in life still bring me to tears and sad memories... I pray you are at peace, I really am doing okay. House is up for sale , very stressful as are many things in my life. Paying the bills, house repairs. Went to an ASU game last saturday , never be the same without you. Happy memories of tailgating and hearing your voice scream over every play. You are with me everyday, on my mind, in my heart.... I miss you ...I miss everything good , not so much the bad but I'd take the bad to have you back. Still lonely, still, sad still empty ..... life goes on as everyone says .... but I'm not happy ... I am content, fortunate 
grateful , blessed but forever sad .... love me