Who can I run to.
Since the year came in, I have been doing everything in my power to stay positive and motivated. I found self-esteem from deep within, and applied it to my daily living. Upon doing this I gained respect where I was in the past taken for granted. I have been speaking up for my son and not just accepting the reports from the teachers. Basically I have had a very good year. I started class a week ago, and I am ready for it. I deleted all the negative energy and people that I was surrounded with; and let me tell you it felt like a weight had been lifted off of me. However upon doing all of this I am still me. Florida Pope, the girl with the big pretty dimples and the big smile, and the even bigger heart. I can't be the mean aggressive person that people want me to be. I can't change the fact that I care about the well-being of people, and that if I can I will help you out. I have been like this since I can remember, but why do people not take my kindness as me being genuinely concerned instead of taking my kindness as weakness. I cut everyone away except my best friend since second, and my big sister, and I am swear I am at the end of my rope with them. My friend has been very ill and I have been taking care of her, giving her medicine, bringing her food, and anything else she needed. Now she is feeling better and doing things without me and getting smart with me. I don't understand how someone could be so heartless. Then my sister fusses because I am down, and then she takes it out on me when she is angry with her daughter. I can't win for losing. I am so tired of getting the short end of the stick every time. I am sad today, and crying today because it just makes me feel so to know that I am all alone. I don't have a friend in the world besides Jesus. But you know what I am going to be okay, because I am going to keep my head up and keep smiling and praying that the Lord gives me strength to make it from day to day.
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you are a girl after my owen heart .......I have also been through many of the things you talk about ..and I will not chang for anyone ...and neather schould you .....you are a beautifull person just the way you are ....s to why people take advantage ....of people lie us ...just because they belive they can get away with it and we won\'t tell ....that is one of our problems we don\'t tell we don\'t talk ..so for people like that the best thing is to tell on them they realy don\'t like that .....and for the ones who think of you as weak ...let them try to live with depreshion ....but ...it doesent mater what they think because you know bwttwr .........many in my family think I am weak ..I am stronger than most of them ..and they don\'t see it ..it use to bother e ...but than I relised ....it matures more what I know of my self ....my h knowes I an a strong person ....that is good enought for me ........it is very good to remove the negitive energies negative people that are around you ....some of he people especualy if they are family. You can limit the time you spend around them .....I think a lot of people are brought to belive that you don\'t get any thing for nothing .and when they come across a person like you .it sort of ...shakes there roundish ion a little ...so it is hard to see you are just doing it out of the kindness of your heart they are weaiting for the real reason to show its self ......sometimes you just have to stand up and tell them I am not lising to this if you want to treat me this way than you can go and come back when you ...can treat me with the respect I give you ................I had to do that with my son once ...and he never talked to me like that again ....I am tired ...I don\'t know if I was helpful or not ...I hope I was ..you take care of your self ...God bless
Thank you so much for those kind words. You don\'t know how much they mean to me, and I am going to take heed to your words. I have to keep my head up and not give up. Thank you for being so supportive of me.