wheres my period then?

Its been 9 and 1/2 weeks since i lost Macy now and i still havent got my period.I had myself convinced i was pregnant i was peeing more and feeling tired, i even felt nauseous 2day and ive been having strange feelings in my stomach. So after work 2day i decided to buy a test i was os excitef i started thinking bout how to tell my partner and how great xmas would be. Negative the test turned out to be. I am so dissapointed its just not fair. I felt like god was going to give me a second chance with this baby i know this is silly. I should still be pregnant in the 1st place and not be worrying bout tests. IM So angry upset and dissapointed, mostly in myself for getting my hopes up when i promised myself i wouldnt