WHERE TO GO FROM HERE
HI Friend, well, it just keeps on coming. I was shaking so bad I couldn't even type my name in. I don't know how to handle anything anymore. Mom's sick, she has to move in with me. My sister went to see her and Hell I haven't even gone into that issue. She forgot her medicine. She had a brain tumor several years ago and it left her with like someone with Bells Pasley. Trust me she is stronger than I am ever or every be. Her life has been so hard. Called her to see how the visit with mom with, she also is diabetic my sister, so she has seizure's. She was having one when I called and she had to call me back and she could barely talk. What in the heck is everything happening. So I told her I would call her tomorrow, the visit with mom was very stressful she did say.
Then my son Brent and his wife are having problems talking divorce that is who we are with this weekend at the Nascar races. Geez will it ever ever stop. Then who shows up my ex and his girlfriend. I don't care but everyone starts acting mad.
Then I just felt like I was breaking. I was going to sign on here and was shaking so hard I could not even move. What am I going to do how in the holy world do I get through all this. I am tired, I am exhausted, I feel I am breaking apart. I can't even take time to grieve for my son if I even know what that is...
I don't know how much more I can take and that too me is scary and that too me is I don't know what I am going to do.
Life sucks and it seems to me if God knew how things were going to happen and how what all was going to happen and what I am going through, he would not have taken my son. Who did I feel I needed to call when I found out about mom's illness of course my son Kenny, and guess what I can't call him. What do I do now. Just forget it all take a bunch of pills and go to sleep.
Going to bed.
Sandi
Then my son Brent and his wife are having problems talking divorce that is who we are with this weekend at the Nascar races. Geez will it ever ever stop. Then who shows up my ex and his girlfriend. I don't care but everyone starts acting mad.
Then I just felt like I was breaking. I was going to sign on here and was shaking so hard I could not even move. What am I going to do how in the holy world do I get through all this. I am tired, I am exhausted, I feel I am breaking apart. I can't even take time to grieve for my son if I even know what that is...
I don't know how much more I can take and that too me is scary and that too me is I don't know what I am going to do.
Life sucks and it seems to me if God knew how things were going to happen and how what all was going to happen and what I am going through, he would not have taken my son. Who did I feel I needed to call when I found out about mom's illness of course my son Kenny, and guess what I can't call him. What do I do now. Just forget it all take a bunch of pills and go to sleep.
Going to bed.
Sandi
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All I can say is that I am thinking of you and wishing you the strength to get through all this. Take things one step at a time and you will find strength within yourself that you did not know you had...one step at a time.
You are richer than you think..You have family some good a lot the other way. You are strong and getting stronger your mom and your son needed you and if I read you right you will be there for them. Yes, you have had a hell of a lot on your plate but you will survive dont\' cave in and drug it all away. Too many things depend on you. I think you owe yourself a vacation a trip somewhere you have always wanted to go.. Start planning now and tell your husband to plan as well. You can wallow or you can swallow..
Life is full of challenges and at times it seems they all show up at once. It gets very overwhelming. I understand the thought of just sleeping it all away. But, we can not allow ourselves to seek the easy way out. And truly, there is no such thing as the easy way out. You have a lot of responsibility left to you right now. Perhaps too much. We can not conquer the world alone. You must allow yourself time to find your own path to personal healing. You must allow yourself time to just take care of you. It may only be a hour out of your day, but find YOU time. No phones, no conversations, no interuptions, no tasks....just you doing something quiet and special just for you. You can\'t give to others if you have nothing to give. You must fill your own tank first if you\'re to make it to your destination of helping someone else. Love and understanding, Teri
I remember those days in my divorce--seemed like everything rained down on you at once. Take each one one step at a time. First, you don\'t have to see your ex. That\'s a problem that\'s easily fixed. Tell him to take himself and his skanky girlfriend and get lost. Second, call your local Agency on Aging (or other type group) and see what type of services you can get for your mom. She may qualify for in-home nursing, etc. Check it out. Third, you can feel sympathy and empathy for your son and your sister, but you really can\'t do anything to help them right now. Your focus has to be on you.
Sending you loads of healing hugs. You are stronger than you think.
Life is full of happenings and sometimes it cvan be overwhelming if we try and take the entire pill at one time. May I suggest dividing it up and approaching it as one thing at a time and not looking at the entire picture for it really can be overwhelming. Are other people in the picture that can help??? Hugs, Inga
Take it slowly my love.. you must take care of yourself.. love to you..
I\'m not good at putting my thoughts on paper. Teri\'s comments are my thoughts. Continue to pray for you and your family......Hugs, Pat
When it rains it pours & it sounds like you are in the middle of a downpour. Just remember in the mist of everything to take care of yourself - you are important too. I am sending good vibes your way....
You can still talk to your son. You may not hear him, but I am sure he hears you. When things get hectic, find someplace peaceful and talk to your son about it. hugs j
I am so sorry this is all happening to your family. I wish I could say take a deep breath and continue on but I know it is far from being that easy. i have no real words of wisdom only that I feel so badly for your pain. Sandi
I\'m so sorry for all your pain. I hope you find strength you don\'t yet know you have. Take care of yourself. Sue
Right now just think about you. After you have given yourself some time to think about what you can and cannot do, you will be in a better position and find the strength to help the other important people in your life. Truly, your friend, Barb
wishing you better days,.. take one day at a time, an hour at a time, just hang in there, your friend, Dave
Debbie,
Wow, your plate is overflowing isn\'t it?!!! Take some deep breaths......and remind yourself you are never alone no matter what. I know you have faith and its gotten you through this far already, after such tremendous losses, your husband & your son. My God! It takes a strong person to get through the DEEP grief that entails losing loved ones like we have. I lost my partner of 7 years, but Deb, you lost a partner and a child. I\'m a Mom & A Grandma and I can only imagine your devastation. Write me anytime, let me know if you want my private email. Its been a bit over 16 mo. since I lost my partner and I\'m still healing a day at a time. A BIG Thanks for the support and kindness you\'ve shown to me. I am grateful.....
Blessings & Gentle Hugs, Jess
WOOPS!!!!!!!! to my above post. I thought I was on dbains page! Sorry Sandi!! I don\'t know how this happened!! operator error no doubt!! I am terribly sorry for your loss regardless if it was posted to Debbie........maybe something will help you I wrote anyway?! Again, I apoligize......for my error. Please Feel free to delete it or I could tell Deb To Come here to read what I wrote I suppose!?!! take Care, Blessings, Jess