WHERE TO GO FROM HERE

HI Friend,  well, it just keeps on coming.  I was shaking so bad I couldn't even type my name in.  I don't know how to handle anything anymore.  Mom's sick, she has to move in with me.  My sister went to see her and Hell I haven't even gone into that issue.  She forgot her medicine.  She had a brain tumor several years ago and it left her with like someone with Bells Pasley.  Trust me she is stronger than I am ever or every be.  Her life has been so hard.  Called her to see how the visit with mom with, she also is diabetic my sister, so she has seizure's.  She was having one when I called and she had to call me back and she could barely talk.  What in the heck is everything happening.  So I told her I would call her tomorrow, the visit with mom was very stressful she did say.
Then my son Brent and his wife are having problems talking divorce that is who we are with this weekend at the Nascar races.  Geez will it ever ever stop.  Then who shows up my ex and his girlfriend.  I don't care but everyone starts acting mad.
Then I just felt like I was breaking.  I was going to sign on here and was shaking so hard I could not even move.  What am I going to do how in the holy world do I get through all this.  I am tired,  I am exhausted, I feel I am breaking apart.  I can't even take time to grieve for my son if I even know what that is...
I don't know how much more I can take and that too me is scary and that too me is I don't know what I am going to do.
Life sucks and it seems to me if God knew how things were going to happen and how what all was going to happen and what I am going through, he would not have taken my son.  Who did I feel I needed to call when I found out about mom's illness of course my son Kenny, and guess what I can't call him.  What do I do now.  Just forget it all take a bunch of pills and go to sleep.
Going to bed.
Sandi