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Where's the peace?

You know I have been thinking. Where's the peace in the midst of this disease. Now, don't get me wrong, I have a fairly positive attitude on most days. Then again there are the days where I am so tired, angry, and hopeless, I don't know where the peace is. My husband said to me last night. He thinks that if his father had the peace of the Lord he wouldn't be so frightened by his diagnosis of Alzheimer's. I had a reaction right away. Peace, what peace, is all I thought. He said it is in His hope. That is something to think about. I know I am going to heaven. I know there I will not have disease. And yet in the midst of fear, anger, hopelessness, it doesn't bring peace to that moment. I do feel the strength of the Lord to persevere. But where is the peace? Am I supposed to have peace? If so, how?
Today is a great day. I slept for 10 hours. Had a great cup of Coffee. I love my job. I have pilates tonight. I made a choice today to be joyful. It is working for me today. Is peace in joy? I will be thinking about this a lot.

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AWDESIGNS8 11/16/2010
my god girl quiet thinking ha ha when i start thinking about my ms its crazy . i think am i going to beable to see walk things like that and its crazy . never give up hope and thats what keeps me going as long as there is something i can do for my ms it makes me feel better and so what i have some pain well let me take something for it and pray to god i\'ll feel better . mind body and soul thats what we have to do. wow you have a job i don\'t even have that i do things at home . i don\'t think i could get a job just right now . use to do flea markets and stand for 12 hours its hard now to stand for a hour . will it get better once i get stronger god i hope . the word choice came up again and i say to that .choice is the only thing god give us so use it wisely . love ya april

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