Where I have been and where am I going?

The book I got on Help for Healing Your nerves I sure hope helps me.  It is by Dr. Claire Weekes and I really don't know how to get sleep well.  I have been on the worst roller coaster ride I ever could have imagined.  Started out eloping to get our a three ring circus home life and I was almost 21.  Had three beautiful babies and this husband decided alcohol was his main life happiness.  After he rejected us, I married a wonderful bachelor of 35 and found him to be as stubborn as a mule!! ha ha  What was I thinking?  Had a baby at 32 and found it harder then my first three. Daaahhh.  Anyway, now I have two living children and one lives three miles from me and begged us to move close by.  Shesh I should have really given much more thought into that.  My husband loves it here though and I am okay, as where ever I go I have to live with me, so I am here.   I love my husband and we do have many grandchildren and great grandchildren.  I always was drawn to children and they to me.  Dogs and older people the same way.  I may volunteer reading with seniors at a nursing home.  Perhaps their family doesn't visit them?