Where do the answers lay?

God, I cry out to you in your Mercy, please bring my wife home to me and back into my life. Help us to love one another beyond this storm. Help us to grow closer to each other and never turn one another loose. I love her beyond life. Maybe too much but I do. Please let her feel in her heart that we are right together. Jesus, Thank you for her and for her in my life. I worship you God and I love you so much. You have never wavered of faltered but I have repeatedly. Forgive me Father.
 
I told her last night i wasnt going to call or text her but i fell off that wagon.  Man, not to talk to her is so saddening.  The one ive talked to for 6 years about everything.  I have not cried so much in my life as i have today.  I dont know if leaving her alone will make it easier for her and I to walk away, or make our hearts grow closer. I am in need of someone who knows about this.  I dont want to lose her forever but it looks like i dont have any choice about this.