Where did the year go?
August 31, 2009
Dear Mom,
Where are you? It's a question I've been asking myself for one year. One year ago tomorrow I watched you go to God. One year ago tomorrow your suffering stopped. One year ago tomorrow I lost my best friend, my kids lost their grandmother, my Dad lost his wife.
I really don't need to ask where you are, I know you are with God. I know you are at peace and in no more pain. I also know I haven't been sure how to live without you. I pray you are able to watch over me. I pray you know I love you. I pray you know I miss you. I especially pray that you know I could not have asked for a better Mom. I have no regrets about our life together. My only regret is we did not have enough time together. Even if you lived until you were 100, that still wouldn't have been enough time.
I wonder why a lot. You breaking your ankle, landed you in the hospital and in just 3 short weeks you were gone. Your cancer had spread so quickly. Then 8 weeks later cancer invaded my life again, this time it invaded me. I wonder if God took you because He didn't want you to see my cancer. It would have been hard for you to see, yet I wish you were here to take care of me. Maybe God didn't want you to be sad and He wanted to see me become a stronger woman, a woman as strong as you.
I've gotten through a round of chemo. A round I thought I could not do. I wonder how you did it. I'm sorry if I didn't do enough for you. I knew cancer was bad, but I had no idea until now what you went through. I'm sorry I didn't do enough.
I will think of you all day tomorrow. I will carry you next to me. I will always love you and some day will be be together forever. Watch over me, love me.
You're always in my heart,
Chris
Dear Mom,
Where are you? It's a question I've been asking myself for one year. One year ago tomorrow I watched you go to God. One year ago tomorrow your suffering stopped. One year ago tomorrow I lost my best friend, my kids lost their grandmother, my Dad lost his wife.
I really don't need to ask where you are, I know you are with God. I know you are at peace and in no more pain. I also know I haven't been sure how to live without you. I pray you are able to watch over me. I pray you know I love you. I pray you know I miss you. I especially pray that you know I could not have asked for a better Mom. I have no regrets about our life together. My only regret is we did not have enough time together. Even if you lived until you were 100, that still wouldn't have been enough time.
I wonder why a lot. You breaking your ankle, landed you in the hospital and in just 3 short weeks you were gone. Your cancer had spread so quickly. Then 8 weeks later cancer invaded my life again, this time it invaded me. I wonder if God took you because He didn't want you to see my cancer. It would have been hard for you to see, yet I wish you were here to take care of me. Maybe God didn't want you to be sad and He wanted to see me become a stronger woman, a woman as strong as you.
I've gotten through a round of chemo. A round I thought I could not do. I wonder how you did it. I'm sorry if I didn't do enough for you. I knew cancer was bad, but I had no idea until now what you went through. I'm sorry I didn't do enough.
I will think of you all day tomorrow. I will carry you next to me. I will always love you and some day will be be together forever. Watch over me, love me.
You're always in my heart,
Chris
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