Where did I wonder off the beaten path?
Well I found my way back to Daily Strength. I'm wondering if everyone is still here. Don't know what to say. How to feel. Lost most the time, just wonder around this small appartment or snooze. My meds are lame at the least. Ask my Doc for some anti-inflamitory meds... he gives me anti-convuslive they can be used for pain... but he never listens to what I ask for or think I need... just shoves more pills in my face..
Sure is a great way to restart my journal here on Daily Strength... I'm such a whinner... God must get tired of me leaning on him all the time...sure glad he lets me tho...I feel like such an outsider, my family have different views of God and Jesus than I do... I'll never give in to the pressure to be excepted if it means giving up my beliefs.
Gosh it so lonely these days... my daughters have broken my heart... my oldest son only shows up when there's something he needs or so it seems... I do give that I may be reading something into it, that's not there... but that's PTSD for you.. don't trust no one... everyone always seems to stab me in the back when I disagree with em.
So stiff and achey today, got my HYDROCO/APAP 5-325 handy... only take it every eight hours... chew up three or four asprin in the mean time... lots of water... lol.. just kinda funny having to judge for myself what works or not...and I've gotten pretty good... but this pain seems really extra rough this year... Hard to walk, can't sleep and then there's the train depot behind the house... well it's a switch yard and they shake the house all night long some times... my little doggy gone plummmmm! she jumps at everylittle noise... sure feel for her...
Well guess I've whined enough for one day...guess I'll go and make DJ's favorite breakfast... eggs hash browns and toast... love it when I do that for him...spoiled ain't he... well gave my kids all the love and freedom I was never allowed as a child... now it backfires in my face often... least they can get glad in the same clothes they got mad in....respect me are leave me alone....
nuff said...Russ
Sure is a great way to restart my journal here on Daily Strength... I'm such a whinner... God must get tired of me leaning on him all the time...sure glad he lets me tho...I feel like such an outsider, my family have different views of God and Jesus than I do... I'll never give in to the pressure to be excepted if it means giving up my beliefs.
Gosh it so lonely these days... my daughters have broken my heart... my oldest son only shows up when there's something he needs or so it seems... I do give that I may be reading something into it, that's not there... but that's PTSD for you.. don't trust no one... everyone always seems to stab me in the back when I disagree with em.
So stiff and achey today, got my HYDROCO/APAP 5-325 handy... only take it every eight hours... chew up three or four asprin in the mean time... lots of water... lol.. just kinda funny having to judge for myself what works or not...and I've gotten pretty good... but this pain seems really extra rough this year... Hard to walk, can't sleep and then there's the train depot behind the house... well it's a switch yard and they shake the house all night long some times... my little doggy gone plummmmm! she jumps at everylittle noise... sure feel for her...
Well guess I've whined enough for one day...guess I'll go and make DJ's favorite breakfast... eggs hash browns and toast... love it when I do that for him...spoiled ain't he... well gave my kids all the love and freedom I was never allowed as a child... now it backfires in my face often... least they can get glad in the same clothes they got mad in....respect me are leave me alone....
nuff said...Russ
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Russ, it is your journal to do as you see fit. I don\'t believe you are whining. Sorry, but health issues are sometimes overwhelming and not considered easy to deal with, especially when a person is alone or thinking you are alone dealing with health.
Yes, you gave your children a lot and I am proud of you for that. I am happy to see you are back on here, and hopefully you can stay. i am proud of you for being a great father. Hugs
Hello my friend I see you are here with us again and i\'am glad that you are back. I was away for a while too getting some things in order. I believe you did a good job on being a good Dad Russ. Adult children are not perfect and each have their own personality. Some show love while others are not so affectionate. You are in stage two of being a parent, granddad, and adviser to your adult children. Just be the best Dad and Granddad that you know how because it\'s the best that you know. Winter pain is the worst,I hope you can get some relief and comfort soon. You have (me) your old friend here in daily strength. I\'m not much but I certainly understand about life and it\'s problems. Hang in there my friend let me hear from you from time to time? It\'s not like we have to check our schedules we got the time. Take care of yourself and your sweet son and hope you see you around more often.
Big Hugs Rachel