Where are you

I'm blessed this i know for certain and I'm deeply appreciative of my life even the parts i deem as difficult but Where are you that place of serenity and peace? I look at myself and ask why am  I so exhausted and tired from doing absolutely nothing, where is my purpose, why does it seem as if others are taking from my blessed well and flourishing as I'm at a standstill, I wake up each morning not knowing where to go, I'm choosing people who seem to take from me leaving nothing good in return and yet I can't seem to let them go, Where are you Angelic presence that's supposed to assist me in moving forward and seeing a majestic journey for me to enjoy? Where are you arch angel Michael and the other divine energies I've planned my life out with in the celestial plain on high when choosing this existence? I need you to show up now be I'm unhappy with what I see and where I am, Divine Source Universal Energy Supernatural Healer i beckon your arrival so i can begin my newest life, Where is my Lover i desire to hold me at night and comfort and protect me when I sometimes feel afraid? Have i done something so wrong I'm not deserving? I've been patient but I feel no will and i know that's not how it's supposed to be, Rejuvenate me in every way so i know I'm going to be ok and victorious, i beckon you to lift me ignite my inner fire so i can shine like you created me to be, Let my mirror image be what I desire, Where are you i need you to rescue me please Amen