Wher I am right now
I'm really hating my body right now as I have gained about 6 lbs in 2 weeks, and I hate it so much. I'm just letting e.d. take over my life with added stress lately and it's getting to me and I know I'm not in a good place lately. I have been restricting and binging. I know I need to get rid of my scale but right now I can't. I have been attending E.D.A meetings every Thursday evening.It's great to have local, in person support. I just wish I could get medical soon so I can get back on Bipolar meds & therapt. I've applied for Disability and hope it comes through soon so I can start paying bills again since my Unemployment stopped. I just neded to take a break right now and would like to go check in somewhere to just get away from myself. Treatment for ana would be nice but don't know if it'd be a reality or a stumbling block right now. I know I need it just don't know If I could stick with it and deal with gaining any weight currently. Plus I'm not sure if I want to let it go yet. I do have an intake for mental health on the 21st to see what I may qualify for. I hope it's something soon or I may go crazier than I already am. Sometimes i feel like checking myself in so that I can get help sooner.
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hope u r better rit now, thou ur status doesnt seem good....
just wanted 2 say god bless u, 1st step step 2 beat anorexia is u admitting the disease, then 2nd step is u WANTING to be healthy,,, im really glad u went throu those 2 steps:)
take care boy...n keep us updated
Maybe you should check yourself in hun, you sound very unhappy. i know its a struggle gaining weight but its a necessary thing, having just gone through it and now trying to maintain it i can be really hard. I hope you get sorted with the medication you need soon as this should help settle things down so you can fight the ed harder. hugs x
Hey Bro, my pain specialist, that I used to be able to afford under cobra PPO(just like you, my short term disability/unemployment is only for a year) told me to go in person to my congress man. I did it before when going for ssi and have been denied twice, but it did speed the process. Now my claim is going to the court of appeals and my lawyer told me to go again to my congressman. I hope this helps you. When you go in person you sign a release so they can expedite things on your behalf. Hang in there bro, I know this totally sucks, and makes you feel like ending it all, but you will be able to look back on this someday. I totally feel your pain...