When will things be back to normal?

I'm wondering when things will return to some semblance of normal again.  When will I have a good time, and then think, I don't see my daughter or grandchildren.  When will someone ask me how many children I have and how old they are and not feel creepy about it.  They say, " I didn't know you had a daughter."  I try to avoid the questions or evade the detailed answers.  It makes me nauseated.  How can I explain why, when I don't really understand it myself?  I was always early to everything, all my life.  I was early to work the first 16 years at my job, now I barely make it there on time.  I forget hair appointments.  Let the laundry go.  I can't quite get to the grocery store.  I feel like my world has been turned upside down.  It just isn't making sense to me anymore.  Will I ever have a sense of peace or satisfaction or is this my life now?  I find myself just wasting time doing nothing at all quite frankly.  I look forward to days off but they are actually worse.  I have alot to accomplish, but spend alot of time thinking about things that make me sad.