When will he come back?

I'm sitting here wondering today when or if Spanky will ever come back to me.  I think of him 10,000 times a day and wonder if he even thinks of me once a day anymore.  He is in his new life with the dirty delinquent and must be happy.  I still haven't heard anything back from Aunt Vicky.  She must know that he is happy and doesn't want to tell me to get me upset.  How can he be happy with her though?  I'm sure that they don't have deep conversations like we had and probably don't talk alot about things anyway.  He used to call me on his way to work and talk about the kids or work or anyhting in general. He used to call me on his break and talk about his night.  Does he do that with her and does she respond?  It's killing me thinking about all of this.  Isn't living with a 19 year old getting old for him right now?  Is he mad about what I said to him a few weeks ago or just hurt?  Does he never want to talk to me again?  I'm scared.  I want to talk to him very badly.  I want to know if there is a chance that we will be together again.  That I will be the woman that he comes home to, sleeps next to and shares his life with.  I want that so very badly.  I just don't know what to do in the meantime.  Do I wait on him or do I go ahead and text him and see if he will respond?  I just want my Spanky back!  Larry told me that if I went back to being the old me, that I will see a change happen.  What change? That I won't need him or be with him any longer?  I don't want to see that!!!!  I wish there was a magic answer and I knew that everything would be ok.